DOSE:		oral	Pharms - Bupropion	(daily)
		oral	Pharms - Paroxetine	(daily)
	1 bump	smoked	Heroin
	24 mg	sublingual	Pharms - Buprenorphine
	6 mg	sublingual	Naloxone
	repeated	smoked	Cannabis
		smoked	Tobacco - Cigarettes

BODY WEIGHT:

165 lb

Unlikely Enjoyable Combination

It was Friday night. I had plans to meet up with a friend of mine named C. My intentions were to purchase 3 Suboxone films/strips (the newer preparation). The reason I decided to go with the Suboxone was because I simply didn't have the funds to buy what it is that I would of much rather used (Opana or OxyContin). I was bored and feeling a bit on edge so I figured I'd at least feel somewhat better if I took some Box. I wasn't overly excited though because I knew I would not be getting the euphoric bliss that, let's say 50 or 60mg of Opana IR's would provide. At approximately 10:00pm, C arrived at my house and picked me up. He asked me if I wanted to go and hang out with him and his friends that had the connection. I had no prior obligations that would hinder my ability to do this so I said yes. Another part of the reason I wanted to do this was because where there's smoke, there's fire and this meant that there would be other substances there that I would enjoy.

We arrived at J's place and there were a few other people there. Everyone was pretty chill, just sitting around conversing and watching a hockey game on the impressive television set that was there. After waiting for a minute or so, my buddy presented me with the Suboxone's that I intended on getting. I started to open the annoyingly packaged strips. I was about to put the orange, chemically tasting films under my tongue but held off for a few minutes because my friend C offered me some of the Heroin that he purchased. Now, it seems like it would of made more sense for me to just buy dope, which is completely what I would have done if I had more then the $21. My problem is that even though I am not physically dependent on opiates anymore (and haven't been in about two years or so) my tolerance to them is still through the roof. I use maybe once a week now because I absolutely admire the effects that opiates provide, however I remain vigilant so that I don't end up an out of control addict that I used to be. I suppose this could be referred to as 'controlling my addiction' or 'rationalizing my use.' That's a fair enough assessment from a CASAC's point of view but whatever. I am a hedonistic being and I need to quench my thirst for pleasure every now and again. So, due to my tolerance, I would need require at least $50 or $60 worth of dope to be satisfied and because the dope isn't all that dope, I wouldn't have bothered anyway. The fact that my buddy offered me some for free, which is fairly odd by some standards, very generous by mine, I went ahead and smoked half a dime on some foil. It didn't have much of an effect but hey, the more the merrier. Now finished with that, I loaded the entire area underneath my tongue with the 3 strips. The reason I did the Heroin before the Suboxone was simply due to the fact that it would of been a waste otherwise because of the Naloxone in the Suboxone that would have negated the effects of the Heroin.

The Suboxone took about 45 minutes to produce the mellow, relaxed, half way euphoric feeling that it does for me. Well waiting for the effects I was talking to the other people there and smoking cigarettes. I got up to use the restroom and I noticed a bottle of Ritalin on J's dresser. I asked him if he had any that he would be willing to sell me. He told me that there were none left however the other guy I was sitting next to had a few 20mg pills. He said he would sell me one for $3 and I jumped on that offer. I was pretty enthused about this addition to my little cocktail of chemicals. I have used Ritalin many times. It is ideal to blow because it is relatively small in size which yields an acceptable amount of powder to blow. Not like the size of an Adderall and definitely not the size of a Percocet (I find it beyond ridiculous that people chose to snort a fucking Percocet). I find that after blowing Ritalin, the effects happen very rapidly. I enjoy this very much and feel that it is comparable to decent cocaine. After all, Methylphenidate is chemically similar to coke.

I was feeling really nice, notably stimulated from the Ritalin. I felt the smoothness, the confidence and the intelligent, wittiness that Ritalin produces for me. I am already intelligent enough and a good conversationalist so the Ritalin enhances these features. If I was prescribed that shit and didn't abuse it, the dose 20mg, three times a day, I would be able to become anything that I desired to be. Zooming along, I can feel the Suboxone's effects kicking in, perhaps less pronounced then they would have been if I had not taken the Ritalin. The combination is actually surprisingly good. I have taken many combinations of drugs and pharmaceuticals, tailoring to the effect in which my little heart desires. My favorite cocktail is 50mg of Opana IR's, 4mg of Xanax and 60mg of Dexedrine (Dextroamphetamine). I realize that this combination, specifically the amount of drugs ingested, may seem inconceivable to some people but that's just the way that it is. I didn't just one day decide to take that specific combo, I eventually realized that I could tolerate the large amounts of drugs in synchrony with each other.

The Suboxone/Ritalin combo obviously wasn't nearly as euphoric, intense and desirable as the cocktail I described above, but it was very enjoyable in its own quirky way. I never thought to take these two drugs at the same time, it was more or less an on the spot decision that I made. I knew that it would be safe for me since the two drugs didn't interact negatively with each other or to the two medications (Paxil and Wellbutrin, I am a depressed fuck) that I take daily. This being said, I think that it was a solid choice. The phamaceutical 'speed ball' had mostly positive effects, these being a sense of moderate euphoria, increased social interaction, increased attention span, increased confidence, decreased anxiety and markedly decreased depression. The less desirable effects included dry mouth, slight dizziness and heart palpitations. The positive effects overweighed the negatives for sure and I am now much more likely to decide to take Ritalin and Suboxone simultaneously in the future.

A few things that I failed to mention above was that I was also smoking weed throughout my little adventure. I guess the reason that this detail was overlooked is due to the fact that smoking weed seems like something that should just be expected when hanging out with other people, especially if they use drugs to begin with. Weed is a nice addition to any combination of drugs. It is a substance that is the only drug that I feel that I don't have a psychological compulsion to use. I don't really ever crave weed or fixate my thoughts around it like I do with almost all other drugs. Weed is good, it is harmless for me to use. I have never made a single poor decision directly related to smoking weed. I don't do stupid shit well high, nor do I do stupid shit to obtain it. In the grand scheme of things, I think weed is actually a benefit to myself. I don't feel that to be true about any other drugs or alcohol, admittedly knowing that these are not to my benefit. To be honest I should only smoke weed and avoid using anything else. The reason that this isn't the case is because weed doesn't provide the loss of inhibitions, the sociability and euphoria that drugs such as opiates provide for me. It is unfortunate that my receptor sites in my brain seem to require copious amounts of chemicals to induce what I consider to be a feeling of well being. Dopamine, norepinephrine and serotonin; the neurotransmitters that, when released as a result of chemically intervention, create a sensation that is not comparable to anything really. :)

Until next time, moderation is a critical part of responsible drug use.

Michael.

Exp Year: 2012	ExpID: 94838
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 20
Published: May 26, 2020	Views: 1,386
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