DOSE:			Pharms - Escitalopram	(daily)
			2C-E
			2C-I
			DMT
			LSD

BODY WEIGHT:

160 lb

Roughly two years ago I took my last trip with research chemicals. By the time I had got to that point I had done my fair share of research chemicals since I had it in ample supply. I had done 2C-I, 2C-E, 2CT-7, and 2CT-2 all with trips ranging from the boring to the extremely pleasant. I never had had a bad trip or negative after effects excluding fatigue the next day. Besides research chemicals I had done other psychedelics: LSD, mushrooms and 5-MeO DMT with the same results.

The reason I mention this is because by the time I had begun experiencing with psychedelics I had been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and Generalized anxiety disorder and had been prescribed Lexapro. The Lexapro actually did wonders for me, curtailing significantly my depression and anxiety to the point where I felt fine. So before I began experimenting with psychedelics I read what possible effects it could have on my mental health. I read that it could exacerbate my depression and anxiety so I started out slow and no such thing happened to me, I felt fine and enjoyed my trips. Usually before I tripped, I would not take my prescribed Lexapro the day before so I could feel the psychedelics more. This was true for about a year and a half of psychedelic usage.

Then one night I decided to take 2C-I, which by then was a common thing, with my friend. I took 25 mg and went to another friends house to hang out. When I got there someone offered me 25 mg of 2C-E and I took it without thinking too much about it. The trip was usual, interesting and fun with lots of visuals until the very end. I started to become a bit overwhelmed by the constant visuals, everything was moving and nothing was staying still. I also started getting a feeling that I was passing some 'threshold' some indescribable place in my mind that I didn't want to go to but I was regardless of what I wanted. I felt uncomfortable but not enough to make a fuss about it.

After the effects went away I got a horrible headache that would not go away and I couldn't sleep for hours but when I finally did I slept the whole next day. When I got up I felt fine. I went into the shower to get ready for school but as I was showering I got a familiar feeling that I had not gotten in a year or so; it was panic. I was panicking about nothing like I had in high school. I started having anxiety attacks. That night I called my cousin to smoke me out to see if pot would calm my nerves. As I was smoking my vision got spotty, black dots began to fill my vision and I almost passed out. I threw up a little when I got out of the car we were smoking in.

From than on, for like 3 months I had to struggle with my anxiety and depression once again. I eventually got it in control but never to the same level I had when I had first started taking Lexapro. I also avoided all psychedelics except for marijuana, even though sometimes it did cause anxious episodes for me but for the most part it calmed me down.

My abstinence of all psychedelics ended two months ago. My friend got a hold of LSD and since LSD was my favorite psychedelic I decided to see if I could handle it. I tried it and once again I had a wonderful trip. It was fun and I enjoyed myself greatly. Unfortunately the next day my anxiety started acting up again and I felt anxious for two weeks to an unusual and uncomfortable degree. I told myself that was it and I had to come to grips that even though psychedelics were enjoyable to me, I could not take them.

That was until another friend offered me DMT. The amount I smoke wasn't a lot at all, I did not have an overwhelming all encompassing experience that I have read about but I did feel it. I smoked what she had left over. That did not cause post trip anxiety but it could have been the fact I did not smoke that much.

Since that I have not done any other psychedelics, excluding the mild psychedelic that is marijuana and I'm committed to not doing them anymore because I don't want to risk exacerbating my depression or anxiety even they have provided me some incredibly enjoyable and beautiful experiences.

Exp Year: 2010	ExpID: 92480
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 20
Published: Jun 18, 2018	Views: 6,319
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