DOSE: T+ 0:00	600 mg	oral	Pharms - Gabapentin
T+ 0:00	3 hits	sublingual	LSD	(blotter / tab)
T+ 1:00	1	smoked	Tobacco - Cigarettes
T+ 2:30	Couple joints/cigs	smoked	Tobacco - Cigarettes

BODY WEIGHT:

120 lb

Mindset: Happy/ Excited
Setting: My house
Substance: LSD
Dose: 3 Blotter tabs

To begin, I am prescribed gabapentin and take 600mg a day. At the time I hadn’t been thinking about how this could affect my trip. Not sure if it did or not, but it’s worth mentioning.

So, I had been hearing about this acid called ‘Mad Hatter’ going around my town for a couple of weeks and was very excited to try it. It had been a while since decent acid had been around. So I called up my friend, let’s call him S, to try and get some. Not being very reliable, I called my friend, D, up as well. Well both ended up coming through and I ended up with 4 hits of this mad hatter acid. D told me it had a funky taste, but was also VERY strong.

10:00- I opened the tin foil. They were tiny, about the size of a pinky nail, purple tabs with a picture of the mad hatter’s hat on them. I put three hits under my tongue. Holy shit, D wasn’t kidding… it tasted like I had just chewed up a bug! I know that whole “if it’s bitter, it’s a spitter” saying, but ignored it since I was so determined to trip. Well, I got my wish.

10:30- I started to notice the walls moving and getting a liquefied look to them. Colors seemed to be brighter as well. I flipped the tabs up from under my tongue and chewed them up before I swallowed them. A very anxious feeling was washing over me and my stomach was feeling a bit queasy (not nauseous though).

11:00- All of the sudden I really wanted a cigarette, so I put in my headphones and headed to the door. I found it surprisingly difficult to put my shoes on because I couldn’t tell how far the floor was from my feet. It seemed to bounce up and down. I put on some Jimi Hendrix and opened the door. As I was making my way down my backyard (about a ½ acre), it seemed with each step I was getting farther and farther away from reality. The ground looked like ocean waves coming to crash on a beach that wasn’t there. I finally got to my shed and sat behind it. I lit up a smoke and took a long, deep drag. As I exhaled, the smoke seemed more ‘3-D’ is the only way I can describe it. I look out at the bright clear moon like it was the first time I’d ever seen it. This is where I went insane.

11:30- All of the sudden, everything froze. A solid ‘sheet’ of colors rose from the bottom of my vision (sort of like how movie credits are). Then the world ‘exploded’ into motion. The colors on the ‘sheet’ were spinning around in a diamond kaleidoscopic pattern and sort of pouring off into nothingness. The world around me was jerking back and forth very violently, but at the same time looked like very fluid and liquid-like. There was a noise coming from inside of my head that sounded like a race track with cars zooming around. The noise would get shaky, like the cars were switching gears or something. Jimi Hendrix ‘Stone Free’ was playing, and when the guitar solo came on, it projected into the sheet of colors forming words, faces, and other things I can’t describe. This was my first experience with synesthesia. I was tasting colors, hearing the world moving around, and smelling noises. I went in and out of this and eventually it stopped.

12:30- After a couple more cigarettes, I decided I wanted to go back inside. I was going INSANE. I needed to get back in touch with reality. Walking back up, I realized I couldn’t tell if I was freezing or burning up. It felt like I was both at the same time. This was extremely frustrating and added to the confusion. When I made it back inside, everything was just as alien as it was outside. My depth and space perception where gone, and the rooms seemed to be tiny like dollhouse rooms. Everything was morphing and shooting around the room. The hands on the wall clock were spinning around and blurring together. I laid down on the couch and turned on my Xbox.

1:00- My mind was in overdrive, racing around, thoughts flying in and out of my head. I was so desperate to feel some sanity, even for a second. The pictures on the wall were jumping back and forth, morphing in and out. This is when things get patchy with my memory. I’d never had a blackout on acid before, so this fucked with my head like crazy. I got off of the couch and got to the stairs. The next thing I remember is being in the bathroom, brushing my teeth, and freaking out at my reflection. It looked less like a reflection and more like a window with a shape-shifting alien staring at me through it.

1:15- I went into my room and laid in my bed, which felt strange and alien to me. I was attempting to put my headphones in but they kept swinging around, leaving permanent trails behind. I could not tell the difference between the trails and the actual headphones. I fell back and looked at the ceiling. This is where a very dark, scary, and torturous thing hit me, since apparently I was still on my trip plateau.

1:30- It hit me out of nowhere. I fell flat on my back. Time stopped again. My senses exploded, blending together and overloading my brain. The zooming racecar noise in my head was overpowering. It kept getting louder and louder every time the racecar ‘switched gears’. Then it would go back to normal, start ‘switching gears’, get ear-bleeding loud, and repeat over and over and over… I was trapped in this loop. Accompanying the noise were solid opaque colors melting and pouring off my peripherals like a waterfall. Everything kept flip-flopping from ‘normal’ to reversed, like a mirror image of the world. I kept thinking, “I’ve done it. I melted my brain. They’re going to throw me in an insane asylum because I’m trapped in this loop.” Then the trip changed.

1:45- The time dilation was extreme. I kept looking at the clock, trying to make sense of these things called numbers. What were they? They kept morphing into letters and different numbers. Then I thought about time. How we were all slaves to the clock and its numbers. I blacked out again. I came to and I was in the bathroom. I was kneeling on the floor with my head in the sink. For some reason I had a half chewed pill in my mouth and I was drooling into the sink. I started spitting it out and stood up. I stumbled into my room and collapsed on my bed and passed out, strangely. Psychedelics always keep me wide awake. I guess my brain couldn’t take it anymore.

Unknown- This part is probably the creepiest. I had a dream that I remember very vividly. It was dark, cold, and lifeless. There was a horrible taste and smell, like moldy cheese. Strange creatures made of a gray waxy substance inhabited this place. I saw one that was hollowed out and a horrible echoing noise was coming from its gaping mouth. One of them had a pile of the waxy substance and was making another one. He was babbling demented gibberish and laughing. He mashed a wax arm on top on the other one’s head.

8:30- I started coming around, but still not sure if I was awake. I looked at my room and ceiling fan. It was like I was in a time machine and my room was flying through a vortex. My room was still morphing and shaking, although my thinking was getting clearer. I got up out of bed, extremely dazed. I felt like I had hollowed myself out. It was like nothing of the person I was 10 hours ago remained. This wore off eventually of course, but I will never forget the feeling.

Summery- I found out the acid was about double the strength of whatever I was used to. The trip overwhelmed me and I lost my mind. I bit deeply into the side of my tongue because my jaw was extremely tight (like LSD always seems to do). It felt like a solid rock. I wouldn’t call it a good trip, but I also wouldn’t call it a bad one. I found some very dark places in my mind, but also felt strangely enlightened. The memory of the ‘Loop’ and the dream will forever haunt me. This was the last time I used drugs.

[Erowid Note: A substance(s) in this report might be identified incorrectly. Erowid reviewers question the author's identification of the drug described. Although the report is included in the collection, the substance might be something other than the author believed it to be.]

Exp Year: 2011	ExpID: 92477
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 17
Published: Oct 5, 2022	Views: 4,087
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