DOSE:

120 - 480 mg

oral

Pharms - Pentobarbital

(daily)

BODY WEIGHT:

70 kg

I first started using pentobarb from a veterinary source recreationally and kept a back up supply for suicide if the worst came to the worst (I was in the throes of severe depression). I took the pento regularly for around 18 months - basically I wanted to escape hellish reality for a while and my daily alcohol intake was making it pretty hard for me to keep my job due to hangovers, while I had few if any hangover effects from large does of barb once I had slept it off. Having a readily accessible, free (read stolen) source also made it attractive to me although good old shame at stealing kicked in after a while.

Pentobarbital is the most foul tasting concoction in the universe even diluted with a bit of water – I need to have a chaser of a strong drink (not necessarily alcoholic) or a snack nearby to get it out of my mouth - by the end even the smell of it made me gag (but I’m a wuss to using needles and the vet version can apparently be potentially corrosive at the injection site as it’s a strong base).

The different batches of the pento I was using had different effects: since some of the bottles were past a use-by date they seemed to be the most foul to drink and provided an inferior experience to better quality batches.

I started taking moderately small amounts of 120mg just for the buzz to relax. Even after just a week of doing this daily I then needed to increase to 240mg to get the same kick, which for me is a lovely gentle buzz where I feel quite dreamy and relaxed about everything and sleep very well. By the time I was on around 360mg twice a day (on days off work) where I was basically getting a short buzz before sleeping, waking up for a while feeling fine and then doing it again.

All I can say at those rates is that the body’s coordination is totally stuffed even though the mind is reasonably coherent – although I could hear myself speaking in slow motion and slurring words. I repeatedly fell over damaging myself to the point where I broke ribs, had stitches numerous times, was briefly hospitalised a few times after they realised I was off my face on something and was ultimately hospitalised in a mental ward by my shrink who thought I was at risk from ODing – pentobarb certainly scares the hell out of the medical profession since its relatively easy to OD on. Coming off the pento was horrible with small whole body fits/low level seizures/shakes/insomnia etc, but I was forced to do this in a hospital so they kindly supplied valium to take the edge off the barb and alcohol withdrawals and after only a week I was clean. By the way, don’t mix alcohol with pento, it is a recipe for disaster in my experience – it limits the enjoyable portion of the experience as it basically just brings on the paralytic state much sooner. Also, I didn’t find this a particularly social type of experience, I just wanted to sit and enjoy the buzz by myself.

Luckily my supply has dried up although I miss having a lower dose occasionally – I felt that it was overall kinder to my body than drinking excessively.

Exp Year: 2008-2009	ExpID: 88812
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 36
Published: Feb 15, 2020	Views: 2,445
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