DOSE:

repeated

inhaled

Inhalants

(gas)

BODY WEIGHT:

55 kg

This petrol trip had to be the worst of all my experiences..
However I havn't really tried any drug's apart from various inhalents, weed , sleeping pills, valium , and of course alcohol.
Note: Im 14.

About 4-5 months ago.. I was in a solitar room sniffing on a petrol can, I got the usual buzzing of the ears, and I was hearing a chime like ringing from outside..
My vision started getting blurred like usual..
I kept Sniffing it, until I felt myself start to black out.. I wasn't afraid.
When I blacked out, I hadn't lost consciouness.. although I had.
Everything was black, I could not process my thoughts.. All i knew was that I had died.. this was the end of it. Was this hell? was I eternaly damned to this place.? I was TERRIFIED. I was shit scared, nothing could describe my fear at that particular time. What seemed like years.. was only a few minutes or seconds for all I know. I knew there was a life after death, though this life wasn't much of a life. Almost as if I was in a partial existence.
I cannot put this into words..

I know a bad petrol trip, I dont think this was one..

I basicaly was just asking 'god' to save me.. give me another chance. Although I wasn't really thinking it or saying it, just processing it in a deep subconceous level.
Hard to explain.

Anyways, after that deep thought I immediately came back to consciousness. I was standing up right.. with my mouth still on the petrol can. I immediately put the lid back on, ran into my room and got on my knee's.. I was praying to god.. for saving me.. sounds funny, but thats my understanding of it.
That there was life after death, and that was hell.
So scary for a 14 year old, NOTE: im still 14.

Exp Year: 2009	ExpID: 76682
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 14
Published: Nov 18, 2020	Views: 2,106
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