DOSE: T+ 0:00	13	oral	Cacao
T+ 1:00	8 mg	insufflated	5-MeO-DMT	(powder / crystals)

BODY WEIGHT:

180 lb

A friend of mine sent me a sample of 5-meo-dmt in the post and I couldn't wait until I had found a proper pipe to try it (I didn't have a sitter to take the pipe or the spoon or whatever either, so I opted out of that method). I had read a few sparse reports of 5-meo insufflated rather than smoked, and I thought, 'well, shee-at, I don't need no steenking pipe anyway!' I intended to get a viable effect from the 'spirit molecule' as this was my first induced experience with it (I may also have been hit with a giant dose of N,N DMT at birth, as Dr. Rick Strassman purports), and so I decided that I oughtta have an MAOI to enhance the effects of an 8mg or so rail. The only one I had readily available was in the form of some raw cacao beans that I had got from Nature's First Law some time ago.. these beans also have anandamide, 'the bliss chemical' in them, which helps give chocolate that feel-good effect, so I thought I'd be in for a good solid and emotionally balanced (I suffer from acute depression) experience.

I ate 13 or so cacao beans before an hour-long Vipassana meditation session, and I was picking up some good vibrations from the beans. To make sure I stayed in the light, I finished off the meditation with a lesser banishing ritual of the pentagram as well as a banishing ritual of the hexagram (these are precautions I take every time I venture into the unknown) and proceeded to snort an 8mg line.

All the reports on-line seem to overemphasise the burning that 5-meo-creates in the sinus cavity. True, it burns. Sort of like cayenne pepper up the nose, but nothing to ruin a perfectly good trip obessing over. Not that I could actually obsess over it, since by the time the drip hit the back of my throat, I began to come on, and slip beyond the bounds of my obsessive, habit-shackled primate programming. I totally lost my connection to the familiarity of my H. Sapiens self and experienced a detatched equanimity toward my sensations that I think only the most fervently persistent Buddhist mditators can attain. In fact, I was so alien to my sense perceptions that I saw my self AS an alien being, a tall, slender, alien with a strong Buddha-nature. I was liquid light, beyond the simple, protein-based body that has endless needs to fulfill. The experience was SO transcendant that it was actually alien, or at least, alien was the only thing I knew of that I could identify the experience with, so it took on that sort of quality. I then began to suspect that perhaps certain insects may have a similar state of consciousness, like, say... cockroaches. I thus began to perceive myself as a sort of large, insectoid Buddha, and then, as the buddha nature in all life. And I realized that the dissolution of the the attatchments to the primate body was the gift that the 5-meo-dmt had given me. And I realized that if I persisted in my meditations, I could continue working toward a stable state very much like this one (I had become interested in gap-enhancing substances like DMT and S. Divinorum as a result of frightening experiences during deep meditations of an alienation from everything I associated with I or me), but at least this would give me a bit of a boost toward a direct apprehension of ego-loss and body disidentification.

And then my nose began to run, and I started to come down. In all I think the experience lasted no more than 30 minutes from snort to rip to stitch, with the warm retrospective cozy of a freshly laundered blanket lasting about 15 minutes afterward. It definitely merits further experimentation, as I intend to compare the effects of smoked 5-meo-dmt vs. insufflated.

Exp Year: 2005	ExpID: 44502
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Jul 6, 2018	Views: 1,287
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