DOSE: T+ 0:00	0.25 tablets	oral	MDMA	(pill / tablet)
T+ 25:00	0.25 tablets	oral	MDMA	(pill / tablet)
T+ 30:00	0.25 tablets	oral	MDMA	(pill / tablet)
T+ 32:00	0.25 tablets	oral	MDMA	(pill / tablet)

BODY WEIGHT:

150 lb

On my second experience using Ecstacy I experienced a crash condition where I ended up taking more Ecstacy to cope with the feelings of sadness, depression and annoyance.

On this particular experience I originally took 1/4 of a fairly large tablet. I took the tablet at a house party where I was unfamiliar with the environment and the people in the environment. Despite the risks of taking such a drug in an unfamiliar environment I felt like I had a really good experience and ended up making a connection with the people that were present. I don't know whether this was because this was a unique group of individuals or if the ecstacy use allowed barriers to be removed that would otherwise have been present.

During the course of the party I also smoked a considerable amount of marijuana, and drank a small amount of alcohol. I was careful to drink plenty of water. I took the ecstacy around 2:00 am and stayed at the party until around 10:00 am. As I was leaving the party I started to experience feelings of great sadness. I was moving, and the chances of ever seeing the people that I felt I had made a strong connection were slim.

After returning home I managed to sleep for a few hours until around 8:00 pm. When I woke up my feelings of sadness were still present and felt even worse than they did before I went to sleep. I couldn't sleep any longer and I was having a hard time dealing with my confused feelings. At around 3:00 am I took another 1/4 of the pill in an attempt to aleviate the sad feelings I was experiencing. My intent was to have a personal trip where I would make a strong connection with myself.

As the effect of the ecstacy started to return I began to reflect on myself and the experience I had just had and the experience that I was currently having. After the elation of comming on to ecstacy I started to feel a little bit anxious and I decided to go for a walk. I occupied myself with exploring my environment while in my unfamiliar state of mind. After walking and exploring for 2 hours I felt tired and anxious and I wanted to go to sleep but I knew that I wouldn't be able to sleep. I returned home again and tried drinking a beer to help me relax. I eventually did relax and started having a good time again. Such a good time that I took another 1/4 of the pill at around 8:00 am. I continued feeling good and eventually took the last 1/4 of the pill at around 10:00 am.

After taking the final 1/4 of the pill I experienced a more intense experience than I had ever experienced on ecstacy (I had only taken it once before where I took half of a considerably smaller pill). I continued to have a somewhat pleasant experience until around 6:00 pm.

At this point in time I was feeling completely exhausted. I didn't know whether I had been drinking enough water and I had been drinking alcohol off and on. I also hadn't eaten since before I originally took the first dose over 40 hours prior. At this point I realized that I had been too harsh on my body and I needed to try and take care of myself. I started to feel really frightened because my heart rate felt like it was up and I felt completely fatigued although I couldn't calm down and sleep. I managed to eat some food although I had a really hard time getting it down. I also started drinking lots of water because I was feeling pretty dehydrated.

I went for another walk and bumped in to some friends. I managed to explain what my situation was and they talked me down a little bit and came home with me and talked with me and comforted me until I was able to sleep.

In hindsight it was both a positive and negative experience. It would have been ok if I hadn't gone so far and been so harsh on myself. I was essentially high for 46 hours with no food and only 10 hours of sleep. I think this experience reinforces the standard guidelines for taking drugs: be conscious of your state of mind before taking anything; have friends around that know what you have taken; be prepared for the effects of the drug and the effects of comming off of the drug.

Exp Year: 1999	ExpID: 2427
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Feb 15, 2001	Views: 10,552
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