DOSE:

repeated

oral

Alcohol

(liquid)

BODY WEIGHT:

165 lb

This is not a description of a single experience but more of a lifestyle I've developed. I'm only 22 but I'm a severe alcoholic. There's hardly a day that goes by that I don't drink. I'm kinda drunk right now actually and its the afternoon.

I've known I had a problem for a while but didn't want to admit it. I'm young and in college its what people my age do, right? I counted one week and I figured I had drank about 2 and a half liters of vodka and 2 cases of beer. I routinely drink fifths of hard liquor in a night usually more. I fall down, knock things over, black out, and get in fights all the time.

I think about drinking constantly I even dream about it. I've tried other drugs mainly pot and all kinds of pills, but they've never taken a hold of me like alcohol does. I feel like shit when I don't drink, I get depressed and anxious at the same time. I even get the shakes after a several day drinking binge.

I want to stop but its so hard. I know I'm going to lose everything. My girlfriend will probably leave me if I don't cut down. My mom knows I'm a drunk and has to hide her pills from me because she knows I'll take them with alcohol. I wanted to be a doctor but my ambition is gone.

Well I just wrote this as a warning. I've only been drinking for 3 years but I'm hooked. It started as getting drunk less than once a week, then every weekend, then almost every day. I would prefer being able to drink in moderation.

Well I've gotta go try to ask for money from my friends to buy some liquor, I lost it all when I got drunk last night.

Exp Year: 2003	ExpID: 21502
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Feb 24, 2003	Views: 15,533
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