DOSE:

1 tablet

oral

MDMA

BODY WEIGHT:

120 lb

Ecstasy Was Heaven

In early 2000, I had been wanting to try ecstasy. It was popular with the people my age (early 20s), and I heard so many great things about it. At that point I was a pot smoker but not anything else. Finally, in Feb. 2000, the chance arrived at $40 a pop. My friend and I each bought a Calvin Klein (CK) ecstasy pill. I was nervous to try it, but I swallowed it with water and proceeded with my night. We went to the bar with her boyfriend. I didn't want to go in case I freaked out when it kicked in. My pal assured me I'd be fine. (She had done it once before.)

After 2 hours of not feeling any different from the pill, I began to give up. I thought it was taking too long to kick in. We sat at the bar drinking and talking. I was bored to tears of her boyfriend. Then this huge wave went through me. I felt something pulling me in, and I didn't know if I liked it. I told myself I deserved to get into it and that I needed to have fun. I began smiling and having the best feeling ever. It all happened so magically. I was definitely rolling and wanted to go. We went back to her house, and her boyfriend went to bed. By then she was feeling it too. We were smiling so much and wanted to talk about EVERYTHING. I felt like I was in heaven. I loved everything and everyone. I felt so clean inside and out. We sat on the couch for hours reminiscing about our friendship and speaking highly of other people. The only thing bad about the entire experience was after I smoked a bunch of cigarettes in a row in the car. We had gone out to the car for a smoke break, and I suddenly felt very icky, and not good. I was scared. It was a scary different feeling. We walked inside, and I drank more water. Within seconds I felt fine. I had just smoked way too much.

I could never feel this way again. I don't think I'd try. I was innocent at the time and deserved to have that experience. My next few trips were great too, but since then it doesn't really work for me anymore. I don't think it ever will. It can take euphoria away from you so that each time you roll it will be more of a disappointment. I am always expecting it to be like it was in the beginning, but with experience, can't feel euphoric on the drug anymore.

Exp Year: 2000	ExpID: 17218
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Jan 29, 2022	Views: 570
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