DOSE:

2 hits

smoked

Salvia divinorum

(extract - 10x)

BODY WEIGHT:

170 lb

I'd like to detail a mega-dose salvia experience I had last week. First of all, I've done salvia about 6 times and I thought I'd try to reach the highest plateau by doing a mega-dose of 10x (salvinorin ehanced) leaf. My first time dose of 10x I smashed furniture everywhere and was so terrified I screamed bloody horror for my mommy while clawing at the walls.

Salvia is no joke, especially at high doses so I planned ahead. I recruited both my girlfriend and my roommate to be my guides (and to hold me down). I am especially interested in the multi-universe/dimension aspects of M-Theory physics and salvia has a way ripping a gaping hole right into the space-time fabric of the universe. So, I prepared for my voyage be letting go of as much tension as I could by telling myself I have a good life and I'm generally a lucky person with a good heart and mind.

I loaded the large bowl on my glass Turkish water-bong with approximately 325 mg (1/3 gram) of the 10x, lowered the lights to almost total darkness, turned off all ambient sound, got onto my bed and had my sitters sit on either side of me. I proceeded to torch the bowl (lighter is right on top of the leaf for higher temps) and began inhaling the thick smoke to my lung's end capacity. I held for exactly 15 seconds on the first inhale (I wanted to be able to hit it again!) and then prepared for the final breakthrough by taking another giant hit and then having my sitter count back from 20.

I remember hearing 17, 18.. and then I was no more. Spinning furiously and gaining momentum down a gaudy plastic colored vortex right into some grotesquely ironic inner dimension at the core of matter, time, space and thought. This was a very scary place because I got the feeling that I've now seen too much and there is no way I am going back (although the concept of 'back' was very vague and little memory existed of the 'real world'). I also got 'the joke is finally over' déjà vu again in a major way. (It is common with my trips to feel that life was all just a big silly joke played us humans).

I felt that the people behind the cosmic curtain were about to emerge and scare the living shit out of me. Who are these ‘folks’? They “feel” distinctively like someone I know very well but forgot about upon entering my earthly existence. It is very creepy yet somehow reassuring to feel as though I was being watched by something beyond this dimension. Even after the trip this feeling remains. There really was no hope of “directing” my trip to focus on enlightenment in the realm of understanding the universe. Salvia tends to take me where it wants me to go. The trip feels more like an exaggeration of the subconscious and it toys with my fears and expectations of how I emotionally view life and the universe. There seems to be little logic involved, just a blizzard of infantile intuition; I feel like a three year-old kid in a very perplexing world and my fear or joy seems to shadow what comes next.

I realized something was holding me down. Flickering segments of a far-off reality were trying to tear into this crazy dimension. I heard a voice far off in the distance yelling something… I began to realize that it was my voice. I had been yelling ‘help’ and “hold onto me!” “hold onto me, I’m falling in!”. There were two entities at either side of my stretched body. They were very far apart. They gave me comfort because I thought I would spin off forever into an unknown dimension if they let go. I began to realize that they were people back in the world I had come from. It was strange to think that they could be partly in this world too, sort of like the dwarf lady in the movie “Poltergiest” trying to hold on to the little girl from falling into the afterlife dimension. They were of course my girlfriend and my roommate, who were deeply disturbed by my yelling and horrified expression. They both vowed: “To never, ever try that salvia shit in million years” after that, which disappoints me because I’ve spent many hours trying to peer-pressure them into trying it! (Really guys it’s shit-your-pants terrifying but it’s really interesting… I promise!)

Exp Year: 2002	ExpID: 12760
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Feb 26, 2021	Views: 3,679
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