DOSE:

repeated

Amphetamines

BODY WEIGHT:

110 lb

my adderall abuse

My first experience w/ Adderall was snorting some in a bar my freshman year of college. I did that once. Then once more my sophomore year. Now I am a junior. I got into snorting Adderall big time this summer. I started on half a pill (10 mg) and would be wired and happy and chatty for about four hours, then I would usually do another half. But I only did this on weekends. Then I had a 14 hour drive to make and somehow began doing Adderall on an almost daily basis after that. I was babysitting and found the job and the kids a lot more enjoyable when I had energy and was enthusiastic about playing with the kids. I also liked it for its weight control, though by the end of the summer most of my friends were like 'hey maybe you should eat, your cheekbones are sticking out.' my clothes were getting loose. I went days w/o food or sleep.

During that time I started to notice less euphoria but I was still wired and would sit or pace and think and think and think about things. This started really messing w/ my head, but I couldn't shut my brain off or sleep no matter how long I forced myself to lay in bed. I quit Adderall then, but picked up occasional use later in the fall. Mostly I used it for studying but sometimes on the weekend to party, because it makes me feel extremely euphoric. However, in the fall I was no longer satisfied on half a pill and would end up doing two or three whole pills instead of half w/in the same four hour period. When my friend gave me 35 of his this past month, I finished them in 20 days. It has been one week now since I have done any, since I was beginning to worry about my health. Plus there was a day in which I did 7 pills in less than 24 hours and can honestly admit there is a 5 hour period I dont remember. I stepped outside to smoke a cigarette, and 5 hours later found myself sitting outside wondering what I had been doing for the past 5 hours. My main problem right now is that the past week I have been eating and sleeping alot. I dont really know if this is related to coming down from the speed, as I would not have expected to feel crashing affects for this long. All I know is that I have always been a partier and this past week I have turned down invites to bars and parties simply b/c I did not have the energy and my muscles are all achey.

Adderall has provided (or enhanced) some of the best times I've had, (not to mention the most productive)even more so than coke or x or anything else I have tried, but to feel this groggy for days is awful. I dont know if the Adderall is related to this or not, but for while I am staying away from it. I like to hope that I will be able to still use it occasionally, and that the tolerance I have developed will disappear and that the intense euphoric feelings that I used to have on it will come back then, but if not I will probably have to forget about it. It is very addictive, and I used to take more and more because coming down made me sad.

Exp Year: 2001	ExpID: 11805
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Sep 23, 2018	Views: 1,978
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