DOSE:

0.5 g

smoked

Salvia divinorum

BODY WEIGHT:

125 lb

I wonder if reading too many experience reports can influence the type of experience I myself might encounter?

Well, the time was just before 10:00pm. In a dark room, Enigma playing semi-loudly from the stereo. Speakers pointed directly above me, behind me. I turn out the light. I am sitting on the edge of the bed.

Hit 1 - My not-so-high-quality wooden bowl does nothing to prevent me from burning my throat, so I am gulping water while I am holding the smoke deep within my lungs. Exhale slowly and deliberately.

Hit 2 - again, the burning, but this time I don't feel it as much. My head, neck and mouth become tingly. I hold it for as long as I can, then let it out, exhaling a bit more forcefully.

Third hit - I can barely concentrate on the bowl I am holding enough to set it on the beside table. But I do, then I lie back, somewhat involuntarily, and exhale swiftly, unable to hold it in any longer....

I've seen this before, I think. This familiar pattern of little green lights in the shape of a 3 dimensional square, but not a cube. It is speaking to me without words and I realize that I UNDERSTAND. Everything. I start to laugh, then it becomes like someone is 'laughing' me. I read that somewhere, it rings true. The understanding was a flash and now its gone. I am on my back, smiling, staring up into a bright blue sky. There is a house just over the grass... Everything is so simple. Blue sky. Green Grass. Brown House. Even the shapes are simple. I'm in the grass and I am the grass. I am a blade of grass surrounded by so many other blades of grass. I can't move, nor speak, nor think in human language. Thoughts come to me in feelings. It comes to me that maybe I should be struggling to get up, to sit up, but then I remember I just did. 'I should open my eyes,' but I just did! But I didn't. I feel vines growing over my limbs and my body strapping me to the ground. I should try to move just to see if I can... but I think I just tried that, and everything's fine.

This goes on until suddenly, I hear music. My music, I feel my body on the bed, or the ground, I am aware somewhat of another existence. Its like I have two minds that are getting mixed up in the memories. I come back slowly, left with so many questions.

Overall, the experience was like an eternal de ja vu within a memory or a dream.
But it wasn't my memory or dream.
I became something else entirely.
Was I subconsciously trying to separate the two realities?

Exp Year: 2002	ExpID: 11762
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Jul 10, 2019	Views: 784
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