DOSE:

1 bump

insufflated

4-HO-MET

(powder / crystals)

BODY WEIGHT:

80 kg

Background: 32 year old male. I like to use psychedelics for introspection, and to help with meditation. In the last few months, I've been using them fairly frequently (about once a week), but in low doses. I'm not microdosing: I generally aim for a ++ on Shulgin scale. I use them in weekends or after work, never during. I find that they help me to understand what is going on in my head: mainly what emotions are there. I slightly prefer psiloc[yb]in over LSD, but have had great experiences with both. To me, psiloc[yb]in has a "soul"/character, a "voice", that guides you through the trip, whereas LSD is more neutral and transparent.

Why this drug: I had ran out of psychedelics and decided to order a novel tryptamine substance from an RC vendor. I was looking for something as close as possible to psiloc[yb]in in subjective effects, but chemical/pure in nature (easier to store and dose). Read nice things about 4-HO-MET so decided to give it a try.

Mindset: Evening after a workday. Not feeling well, but not worried about not feeling well. Lots of tension in my body. I know that if I just take the time to listen to myself, I'll feel better. Little bit nervous about trying this new chemical.

[Erowid Note: Two samples of powder (even of the same chemical) with equivalent volumes won't necessarily weigh the same. For this reason, eyeballing is an inaccurate and potentially dangerous method of measuring, particularly for substances that are active in very small amounts. See this article on The Importance of Measured Doses.]
20:00 (T+0): Time to get acquainted with 4-HO-MET. Too lazy to get my milligram scale, so I just snort a small (unknown) amount. My intention is to consume 5-10 mg, but who knows how much it really is...

20:05 (T+0:05): Little bit nervous. Thoughts go "I should have used my scale, bla bla..."

20:10 (T+0:10): Effects coming up fairly rapidly. Familiar tryptamine high. Still nervous. Then I remember to just go with it. Even if I accidently overdose, I'll probably be fine.

20:30 (T+0:30): The "peak". Not too intense. A good ++. I can think very clearly. No visuals, but not interested in them either. I realize that there are two important issues on my mind. The first issue is that I need more privacy (I'm currently co-housing) and I really don't like one of my housemates. Already been looking for a new place, so not much else I can do here. The second issue is something very fundamental, something fucked up about my upbringing, and is a root of a bunch of other issues, that I will not describe here. I make an active attempt to focus on this feeling, and perform a kind of meditation where I feel my younger self being hurt and defenseless, and switch mentally to my older self, that doesn't have to be hurt or defenseless anymore. I repeat this several times, and begin to feel physically much more relaxed and stronger. Feels good.

22:00 (T+2:00): Effects declining. Went for a walk.

23:00 (T+3:00): In bed but not yet ready to sleep. Feeling "up", stimulated, but not in a forced manner. Happy.

0:30 (T+4:30) Fell asleep.

8:30 (T+12:00): Woke up, feeling good.

Integration: Trying to continue my practice of younger self / older self, to let go further of this deep feeling of defenselessness.

Conclusion: In this first encounter, I found 4-HO-MET to be very usable for introspection. Word on the internet goes that this is a "beginner's psychedelic" because it's easygoing, has fun visuals and is not too serious. However, I found that it is great, almost perfect for serious introspection as well.

Is it better/worse than psiloc[yb]in, 4-AcO-DMT, ... ? Impossible to say. IMO, they are all so similar, that set/setting becomes a much more important factor (even when comparing with LSD). In this experiment, it definitely felt like a high-ranking psychedelic. I'm very pleased.

Exp Year: 2023	ExpID: 117370
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 32
Published: Jan 11, 2024	Views: 15
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