DOSE:			Pharms - Fluoxetine	(daily)
			Pharms - Buspirone	(daily)
			Pharms - Trazodone	(daily)
	200 mg	oral	Cannabis - High THC	(edible / food)
	2 bowls	smoked	Lotus/Lily - Nymphaea nouchali var caerulea	(flowers)

BODY WEIGHT:

160 lb

Intense High on Edibles and Blue Lotus

I had seen people report enhanced THC highs when combined with blue lotus, so I wanted to try some for myself. I am very experienced with THC, and have tried smoking blue lotus a few times with no obvious effect.

On the day of, I was in a decent mental state but had been under a lot of stress in the past few months (anxiety and existential fears). I take prozac, buspirone, and trazodone 1x daily as prescribed, my last dose having been the night before ~11 pm

I took 200 mg worth of edibles (this dosage was intense but comfortable, tolerance was too high) around 6:40 pm after getting home from work.

I then smoked a bowl of the lotus, and another once the edible started to kick in, though it had no distinguishable effect.

The edible kicked in as normal, and I spent a while eating, drawing, then trying to draw, then using my headspace for some writing. After ~1 hour it was feeling heavy and I knew I had to lie down. This is all very typical, except my thoughts felt clearer and less confused than typical.

I am uncertain of the timeline for the next phase.

I was then in bed watching 'Better Call Saul' for a while, and visual distortion began. I noticed the image sort of 'crystalizing' into sharp edges and solid color every few seconds. It's very hard to describe, like it was being run through a sharpen and airbrush photo filter. This would happen to text on the screen as well, with letters becoming 'blocky' and difficult to read.

I also began to notice subtle visual effects in the dark around me and when my eyes were closed, so I started to watch this instead. It was a kaleidoscope of shifting geometric patterns and distortion, though it had no 'color', and was very distinct from material reality. Nothing mindblowing. It would come and go, leaving a static dark pattern behind in my vision when gone.

I decided to watch the visions instead of TV. I attempted to meditate and focus on/control the CEVs, but had the clear impression that it would come and go as it pleased. I felt a distinct sense of presence during this stage, like there was something walking beside me during this experience (it felt benign but alien). I began to have several inner monologues, none of them my own. I remember one was malicious and trying to frighten me, and another was stern and comforting and seemed to guide me through this phase. This was the same 'benign but alien' presence. It gave me very pragmatic advice on some existential fears I have been having. I'm unsure how long this phase lasted.

I started to come out of it at some point, and got out of bed to write some notes at 11:26 pm. I was still very high, but more lucid and the visualizations were gone. I became focused on a silhouette in front of my door, certain it wasn't there before. I experienced a sort of chill paranoia, convinced that the shadow was something awful but not being motivated enough to move for quite a while. (It was a shoe).

After that anticlimax, I took my medication and went to bed. I had a bad 'hangover' the day after, feeling tired and disoriented and experiencing a slowed passage of time until ~8:30 the next night.

I have experienced almost '''psychedelic''' highs on THC before, but a lot of this felt new. The intensity of the 'presence' and the CEVs was unique. I have to assume the lotus influenced the high in some capacity, but will have to experiment more after a Tbreak to see.

Exp Year: 2022	ExpID: 116778
Gender: Not Specified
Age at time of experience: 24
Published: Nov 21, 2022	Views: 385
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