DOSE:	1 hit	oral	Unknown	(gel tab)
			Pharms - Lithium
			Pharms - Buspirone
			Pharms - Escitalopram
			Pharms - Lamotrigine

BODY WEIGHT:

100 lb

I was planning to trip some acid because I haven't tripped on any hallucinogens besides molly in almost 2 years. I've tripped LSD dozens of times, and I've had bad trips on them so I know how it feels like, and yes, I understand that the experience/trip can be different every time but this was PHYSICALLY different.

Since I stopped using drugs as much as I did before, I had lost pretty much all of my trustworthy connects and asked one of my marijuana dealers if they knew anyone who sold LSD. I knew this dealer since middle school, and though we've never really been friends he's best friends with a good amount of my childhood friends so I naturally I trusted him and because he knew this guy and he's a good amount reputable, I was fairly confident that it was real LSD for the sole reason that I knew the reference. Anyway, I hit up the dealer to purchase 5 gel tabs of "LSD." I don't know the difference between gel tabs and paper tabs, but I doubt it matters and is relevant anyway. The drug was the drug.

I was with my girlfriend at my house and she also took a tab. She has never tripped before in her life and I understand that it was irresponsible of me to let us trip right after an argument but it wasn't just a bad trip-- it was almost a tragedy. When tripping, I try and be as aware as possible, especially with beginners, that they're safe and okay because I know how bad trips feel like. She wanted to go to her house, and so we went there because her parents weren't home (her mom heavily dislikes me, and so it wasn't exactly the best headspace for me, but that doesn't matter anyway). We had no friends to go to, no transport, and it was too cold to be outside, so it was either my house and her house, and she felt safer at her house so her house we went.

An hour in I think, is when breathing became hard for me to do and I knew I was burning hot but I didn't necessarily "realize" or care . I stopped moving because it was like I was too "stoned," barely even hallucinating until I closed my eyes for only a couple of seconds it felt like. My heartrate was so high, I could hear it and feel it POUNDING at my chest. It was deafening but I ignored it just like how high my body temperature was. I just thought that I was scared to have a bad trip again and tried to control my heartbeat, even though I had no control of it anymore. I acted fine, I tried drinking water and eating some chips to see if that would help with the physical problems I experienced.

Then it hit me even more. I stopped moving again, I laid my head down on my girlfriend's lap and started mumbling god knows what. My eyes were open, but I couldn't see because of a still red geometric image. The light in her room is orange so I guess red became all I could see. I didn't know how much time went by, and I was trying to keep myself calm as much as I could because I knew I was starting to have a bad trip, but my girlfriend told me afterwards that my face looked utterly terrified and that like I couldn't make eye contact with her (which was almost impossible for me to do because of the patterns blocking my vision).

I take four antidepressants; lithium, buspirone, escitalopram, and lamotrigine. I believe it increased the severity of the overdose. I remember her saying "stay with me, Solpi, stay with me." It kept me hanging on by a thread for a couple more minutes and I appreciated that she finally saw that I was seriously not okay. A couple minutes after, I blacked out.

From what happens here on out is what my friends told me happened: I started seizing, foaming at the mouth, bit my tongue til it bled. She called a reliable friend (who has been there for me during a lot of bad incidents) and she ran to her house. The friend saw me and told my girlfriend that they needed to call the cops (my girlfriend was inexperienced and intoxicated as well so she had no idea what to do so she just called our friend). I was wearing this big fluffy sweatshirt and apparently I was literally as red as a tomato. I woke up 5 hours later on a gurney with like, 6 nurses holding me down. The first thing I thought was, "goddammit, not the hospital again". My heartrate was still deafening. I didn't know what the hell happened, if I messed up and my girlfriend dumped me on the street or if I ran away and ended up someplace. I instinctively opened my apple watch (thank god they didn't take it off. I would have been so, so terrified and would have felt so alone not knowing what happened before I blacked out) and typed my dad's phone number so I could show it to them. I didn't have a hard time writing but I did have a hard time remembering their numbers. It didn't matter anyway.

Pretty shortly after I woke up my heartrate finally went back to normally and the nurses let go of me. As I waited for a doctor or more like my dad or mom to show up clutch so I can finally feel safe again, watch buzzed and I saw a text from my girlfriend. I then realized my phone was close by enough to text other people. My mom was trying her hardest to get into my room because of the pandemic and she was eventually able to because she worked at the hospital.

After that, I had a lot of trouble remembering things, both my long-term and short-term memories were damaged for a while. My entire body was also bruised from probably the nurses pushing me down. I almost died of serotonin syndrome (my meds probably didn't help at ALL) and cardiac arrest. I've almost accidentally died on many other drugs before like falling off a roof on xanax, but that was because of stupidity. This actually almost killed me. Test your drugs.

Exp Year: 2021	ExpID: 116322
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 21
Published: Apr 26, 2022	Views: 1,515
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