DOSE:	20 - 30 mg	oral	Pharms - Methylphenidate	(daily)
	10 - 80 mg	insufflated	Pharms - Methylphenidate	(ground / crushed)

BODY WEIGHT:

125 kg

About a year ago I was diagnosed with ADD. Soon after, I was prescribed 10mg methylphenidate extended release pills, and started taking one in the morning and one in the early afternoon, which helped tremendously with my concentration and energy levels. I was told to lay off the mph on weekends to prevent developing tolerance.

Now, I didn't exactly follow the doctor's guidelines - every weekend I would take one or two pills apart, crush the tiny balls of medicine inside and snort lines of the mph. Within 15 to 20 minutes, I would get this energetic, euphoric rush, which would persist for about 3 to 4 hours. The feeling was somewhat reminiscent of amphetamine, albeit substantially weaker. Now, mind you, I'm a musician, so I used that energy to my advantage - I wouldn't just sit on my ass and enjoy the feeling on its own, but rather I would get madly creative - writing lyrics became 10 times easier than when sober; composing, playing guitar and producing would be pure joy, and, because the high was more clear-minded than amphetamine, the effects of my work would actually turn out really good most of the time, whilst if I was to make music on speed, a lot of the stuff that seemed amazing during the high would actually turn out to kinda suck the next day.

The comedown would be quite unpleasant, but uncomparably weaker and generally shorter than that of amphetamine, or for that matter, any other stimulants, and would be easily made manageable, or even ended altogether with the help of a little alcohol.

That state of things persisted for a couple months, and I would always be excited for the weekend to come so I could put together some really nice music with the help of mph.

Now, after a while, while the weekend high achieved by snorting lines would be generally more or less reliable, I've noticed that the 2x10mg daily dose during the work week started to work less and less. I've contacted my doc; I obviously didn't tell him about the mountains of powdered mph I did during the weekends, I just told him that my concentration during the week started to fade. Sure enough, we changed the dosage to 20mg in the morning and 10 in the afternoon. For a while, that did the trick, and I would continue the cycle - concentrated well enough at work, productive during the weekends.

Sadly, this wouldn't last forever. Some two months ago, I've noticed that I would often need to double the weekend dosage to get the same kick, and then one Saturday, I've consumed 40mg, as became the new norm for me, and waited. 20 minutes, 30, an hour - nothing. Another two huge lines, waiting, waiting - absolutely nothing. Not only no euphoria or creativity, but not even any noticeable change of wakefulness or concentration at all.

I laid off the mph for a weekend or two, foolishly hoping it would do the trick, but no - the lines would just be a waste of medicine at this point.

Now, because I had a really easy week of work coming, I thought that I don't really need to be all that concentrated through that week. I thought to myself - this is the ultimate chance; I don't need mph this week. Time for a tolerance break. So, Monday through Friday I was clean of mph. When Saturday came, I was thrilled. I was sure the sweet high would come back.

Two 20mg lines were made, one for each nostril. Snorting, than waiting.

Nope. Not a goddamn thing.

I'm back to using the mph purely therapeutically, even though it doesn't seem to do much. I don't think another increase of the dosage would be beneficial, though, so I guess I'll have another tolerance break whenever I won't really have to think all that clearly for an extended amount of time. Until then, I'll stick with caffeine for the weekends, so I have at least some energy to do anything at all.

But I won't lie, I'm actually pretty devastated. The weekly routine worked really well for me, and as of now - my life through the weekends seems quite empty. So, be careful with mph, tolerance might hit suddenly - and quite hard, too.

Exp Year: 2021	ExpID: 115917
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 24
Published: Nov 30, 2021	Views: 2,808
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