DOSE: T+ 0:00	0.5 mg	sublingual	Etizolam
T+ 0:30		smoked	Cannabis - High CBD	(extract)
T+ 0:30		smoked	Tobacco - Cigarettes
T+ 1:30	1 mg		Etizolam
T+ 2:00		oral	Alcohol - Hard
T+ 2:00	100 ml	sublingual	1P-LSD	(blotter / tab)
T+ 9:00		smoked	Cannabis
T+ 9:00		oral	Alcohol - Beer/Wine

BODY WEIGHT:

65 kg

___ Pre-Context :

I was using various chemicals when I was in my teens, from 2014-2018 I was a daily pot smoker, drinking and taking MDMA in festive settings.

In 2016 I discovered synthetic cannabinoids [JWH 0-18, MMB-Chminaca and a third I don't recall] and (ab)used in all of the way possibles : knife dosage of powder in cigarettes, homemade herbal blends, smoking on foil, vaping.

Other substances experienced : LSD (one time, half blotter), BK-2CB, psilocybin (5-6 times, mild dosages), ketamine, cocaine, amphetamines, various others.

I dropped from college and lost friends one by one because of my lack of effort to maintain those relationships. As of now I live at my dad house and don't consume any drugs except cigarettes and the occasional drink. All this made me agoraphobic and socially anxious/awkward.

___ Expectations:

I want to find my true self, live an exciting life and surmount my social fears.

___ Context :

I wanted to take acid alone for introspective exploration, so I obtained 1P-LSD and Etizolam as a downer in case things go south. I wanted to trip when my dad would go away for a week of holidays. But oh surprise! When I received the packet yesterday I felt like trying etizolam as I never took benzo’s before.

___ Set :

House, calm suburban village with forests and fields, calm night with a few clouds.

___ Experience :

22h : took 0,5mg Etizolam sublingually

22h30 :I never took benzos before and felt it when I stand up, very slight balance uncoordination, peace of mind. I went to smoke a cigarette with CBD isolate.

After this I cant add time stamps or details because I didnt had sense of time/ took notes.

23h30? 1mg Etizolam : I consciously knew compulsive redosing was a risk but I took it anyway.

At this time I was disinibited and decided to trip tonight for whatever reason. I packed a bag with 2x1mg etizolam, 2x100ug IP-LSD, some apple juice with water, half bottle of wine, a sleeping bag, a towel, my trustworthy headlamp, smokes.

24h? Sat for a last smoke and drank a small amount of rum before going, I know, this is unadvised with benzo.

Put my headphones on, took 100ug sublingually and headed out to a relatively nearby field where I knew I wouldnt be bothered.
On my way I had difficulty maintaining balance, like if I was drunk. When I arrived I collected wood, lighted a little campfire and made my self a cozy nest. I felt really in peace with myself and the environment I was in, the warmth of the fire, the beautiful music I was listening to. I went in my sleeping bag and began gazing at the clouds and visual kicked in, morphing, swirls. It was cool but nothing extraordinary or overwhelming. Music sensibility was amazing tho.

I don’t know if I fell asleep or if I gazed all this time but when I got out of this state the day was barely just starting to rise ( 6h42 after I checked)

I packed my camp and headed to a park, drank wine and smoked a cigarette while watching the sun rise, the trees were dancing and I was seeing them grow new branch, spring is here I sayed to myself.

Got back home and slept. I felt groggy when I woke up, probably because of etizolam.

I checked my bag and there was still the 2 etizolam and 1 blotter of 1P-LSD.

___ Conclusion:

This was a great experience and I certainly learned a few lessons but I wish my memories were more clear. I don’t regret doing this but I don’t quite know why I did that, benzo disinibition is scary. The trip was not introspective. This makes me positive that a benzo will kill anxiety if I need to calm down for the next time I take LS because I didnt have any fear, anxiety even tho I was in a mildly spooky environment. I will do things in the right order tho.

Exp Year: 2021	ExpID: 115328
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 22
Published: Apr 20, 2021	Views: 798
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