DOSE: T+ 0:00	10 g	oral	Mushrooms - P. cubensis	(dried)
T+ 5:30		smoked	Cannabis

BODY WEIGHT:

64 kg

First of all, I would like to thank you for taking the time to read this. It was an immensely personal and intense experience, which had some interesting challenges, and a pleasure to write about.

I'm a 29 year old male, with a fair amount of experience in the psychedlic realm, I've had a few experiences with LSD, one of which led me to ask what my own name was, several times. 10 years or so ago I had my first experience with the psilocybe, which was the Psilocybe Semilanceata. It was a wonderfully social (dosed) trip, and an adventure through a series of complex emotions, optimistic and loving, but nowhere near 10g's.

A couple of weeks prior to this experience, I had some gastro issues, but I dont have much of a medical history in terms of long-standing illnesses, or even mental illness. My diet consists of mostly food considered healthy, green smoothies, the odd meat dish, pasta etc and I exercise regularly so I'm quite confident physically.

I wanted to take the mushrooms on a friday, so I have the weekend to recover. After work I tried to sleep a bit, but only managed 1 or 2 hours, as I wanted to take it at night, and trip throughout the night. I'm very Terence Mckenna when it comes to psilocybe, except it's 10g in silent darkness this time instead of 5g. I'm in my apartment, alone - feeling very positive, although slightly hesitant about what is to come. I hadn't really eaten since noon that day, apart from a few snacks, but the last time I ate was about 3pm, so my stomach was virtually empty - a conscious choice.

23:30 - I roll out of bed and prepare the bedroom for the experience. I take my desktop speakers from the other room and place them on the desk, along with my laptop, just in case I need some musical support. I boil the kettle, and start chopping the cubensis into fingernail size pieces, and place them in a mug. I prefer the tea route, as they take a bit of time to chew, and a tea seems to hit me quicker and more intensely. I fill the mug almost to the top with boiling water (about 1 cup) and let it steep for about 10-15 mins. After 15 mins I start straining them in the mug with a ladle (its all I could find) and take out the cubensis and put them in another mug, and also fill it with boiling water again.

12:00 - The first tea is ready. I actually love the taste of the tea, and the smell is associated with great memories. I gently start glugging the liquid down. I sat on the bed awaiting the second steeping mug. After about 10 minutes, I start straining the cubensis in the next mug and take them out as before, and glug it down. I was slightly hesitant with this second one, and stood a moment pondering before drinking it.

12:20 - I whisk myself over to the bed, lights off, door closed, and sit. I'm feeling some of the effects already, but very mild. The familiar waveyness of objects around me.

12:45 - Felt very relaxed, and keeping my eyes closed, awaiting the visuals to arise behind my eyelids.

01:00 - There was an immense sexual energy that washed over me at this point, putting me in a state of complete relaxation. It was almost as if an entity was holding me down very seductively. It was a lovely feminine energy, and perfect, as it got rid of any anxiety induced by the onset.

01:30 - I watched my stopwatch less and less as I was just enjoying the experience. I was in a dream. Part of me was still 'awake' to the fact that I was tripping, but I was so engaged in the experience. I sat up, thinking about putting some music on to enhance the experience, but I thought it might just distract me, so I laid back down, I did this a few times. I'm getting very swirly silky patterns, with these rare brain zaps, a sort of flash, with an intense quick buzzing sound, like my neurons firing vigorously.

01:45 > 03:30 I'd like to be able to say what time it was when the peak of the trip hit but I was so out of it that was the last thing on my mind (or what was left of it) I will try to describe it as best as I can. The visuals were absolutely stunning. They weren't so much colourful, as they were more like complex patterns, with shapes or pipes fitting in to one another, but very bright and crystalline. It seemed like I was controlling the patterns with my words. The focus of the trip was very personal, and based on very recent feelings, events and people I know. I didn't see faces as such, but more like the soul that represents those characters, hard to explain. Whenever I would see these souls, there'd be a phrase I'd say, repetitively, without much control. There was some very cute feelings with a dog I'm familiar with, and amusing feelings with a few people. I got into some very challenging thought-loops, these thought loops were connected to the repeating phrases, except I would be saying the same phrase until I got myself out of the thought loop, and onto the next one, with the patterns changing ever so slightly. It was enjoyable for the most part. Whilst saying these phrases, the complex visuals were keeping me entertained and so child-like, until the most intense part of the peak hit.

There was a point where I got stuck saying the same phrase over and over, there became a very loud background sound, almost like standing next to a waterfall. I tried to let go, but I was being pulled back into the phrase. I cant remember what I was saying, but I knew I had to pull through. So many bright images passed through my vision at that point, I was fully entwined in my subconscious and my heart was racing.

03:45 - I got myself out of it and couldnt believe how much little time had passed, it felt like an eternity stuck in that loop, but it wasn't over yet. Stumbling out of the bedroom, I fell to the floor. I felt very nauseous, and crawled over to the toilet. This was the purge. Just like clockwork, the most intense part of the trip led to the expulsion of negative energy. I was sweating so much, like I had a fever, nose dripping. I took many deep breaths hanging over the toilet, whilst intermittently chuckling and saying 'Fuck me!' in awe of what just happened. After the purge, my body felt electric, but I was very woozy and I found myself laying face down in a corner of the kitchen (which connects the bedroom and the bathroom) I lost all feeling in my hands and legs. Pretty shocking, almost like Ketamine. I think it must of been the way I was laying. I sat up and waited for the blood to rush back into my extremities so I could walk.

04:30 - I'd been in the kitchen for quite some time it seems, so I laid down on the bed again, with a bottle of water by my side. There was some very comforting visuals, but the peak was definitely over.

05:00 - I was going through some very hopeful and optimistic thoughts and feelings, about certain situations with colleagues and close friends, thinking about how amazing the trip was and wanting to share it with everyone, playing out in my head how I'm going to tell them, and try to persuade them as to how beneficial it is. This part of the trip is always a bit of tease, as I know this isn't how I'm going to feel tomorrow, or feel after sleeping it off.

05:30 - I grab my pipe and some weed, the mild waveyness that I'd started the trip with was back, although much less so. I put some Rukirek on which sounded wonderful and was perfect for my mood. Smoked a little, I'm prone to headaches after a trip, so I just smoke a small amount or I dehydrate whilst sleeping.

12:00 - Waking up, I feel all the effects over, although with an expected headache and very tiresome. My breakfast consists of a boiled egg and a banana and oat shake so to put something in my stomach at last. I slumped on the sofa and slept another 5 hours.

Writing this 2 days later, I feel there may be some minor parts of the trip missed out. It was an amazing experience and so very medicinal. I was very conscious during the purge, but the before and after is a bit of a blur. I find it strange that that was the part I remember the most vividly, but it makes sense in a way.

Psilocybin has the most interesting way of taking care of me whilst tripping. It will not hurt you, but will challenge you if you want it to. I'm glad that I was alone during this trip, I think it would of been weird to have someone else there. I didn't need any assistance, as I know it's all part of the experience and tell myself so throughout. Next time I'll have to put a recorder in the room so I can log what I was saying, I dont think it was glossolalia, as it was English in my head. It was a truly magnificent experience, there really is nothing to fear.

Exp Year: 2019	ExpID: 113167
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 29
Published: May 15, 2019	Views: 1,573
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