DOSE:

25 mg

oral

Cannabidiol

(edible / food)

BODY WEIGHT:

180 lb

At 32, I have had more than my fair share of panic attacks. Lately, I had been experiencing them every day. I was a long time alcoholic and opiate addict until my wife and I had our little boy. I got serious, sought treatment and am clean & sober to this day.

The good part was that all my feelings came back. The bad part was all my feelings came back. And with them, flashbacks to being abused and bullied, images of losing my dad to his own alcoholism, flooding back like a tidal wave of uncomfortable life experience.

And with it came panic attacks. Constant panic attacks. Not like once a day, I could deal with that. It was at least 5-6 a day. At this point I had been on several different drugs to treat my condition. I have back issues. That's where my opiate addiction came from. I had resigned myself to sleeping 3-4 hours a day. And it was terrible.

One day I discovered CBD. In a random shithouse luck moment, I stumbled upon the name of a good vendor of CBD oils and other products, and decided to try some of the edibles.

I waited until everyone was home so that I could try one, not wanting to be alone should I experience any bad side effects. When all that was satisfied, I put on a good song and went to work. This was on an empty stomach and I was experiencing a stomach bug at the time, so nausea is definitely a factor here.

T+0 - initial consumption. Not much in the way of flavor, it actually tastes like sugar and weed. I scarf it down pretty quickly, because it's not my favorite taste. Here goes nothing.

T+30 - a feeling of relaxation washes over my body. Not like the I don't care if I misspelled something kind, but the Zen, at peace with myself feeling comes to mind.

T+1h - slight sedation kicks in. I want to go to sleep, but it isn't overwhelming. I'm noting a slight cottonmouth sensation at this time. Might just be me, but color perception seems brighter as well. My head also feels tingly, but ever so slightly. Nausea is starting to subside.

T+2h - still feeling super relaxed. It's as if I'm somewhat stoned, but without the paranoia or the mind melting cerebral rush. I can hold a conversation at the dinner table without feeling panicked. I can move around without being in excruciating pain. Wow. I feel great.

T+3h - definitely feeling more relaxed. Picture back when we were kids and didn't have much to worry about. I can literally feel my stress melted away. My back feels the best it has felt in more than 5 years. Nausea is almost completely gone. On a side note, my appetite seems to be kicked up more than usual. I am happy yet conflicted on if the amount of food I am consuming is healthy.

T+4h - my wife just got some bad news about a family member. So I sit down to write a song to my wife hoping to make her feel better. It's been a long time since I've written any kind of poetry, let alone lyrics. I am sitting here, super focused, with almost no pain.

T+5h - it's getting late, I should probably go to sleep now.

In summary, it's like someone took the good parts of being stoned (relaxation, pain relief, appetite) and bottled them up without the paranoia and inability to function past the couch.

I have also tried several herbal remedies and NONE have even come close to what CBD does. I have tried valerian, kava kava, St. John's Wort, GABA and I am going to stick with this.

One thing that I noticed throughout the experience is that emotions are there, I can still feel happy, sad, excited, bored, etc. Unlike with antidepressants where I felt more like a sedated zombie than anything. Based on my experience I have decided to make CBD a permanent part of my lifestyle for as long as I can obtain it.

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 111377
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 32
Published: Dec 19, 2017	Views: 13,551
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