Life-Changing Empathy
5-MAPB & Kratom
Citation: Vintr. "Life-Changing Empathy: An Experience with 5-MAPB & Kratom (exp107553)". Erowid.org. Dec 24, 2015. erowid.org/exp/107553
DOSE: T+ 0:00 |
6 g | oral | Kratom |
T+ 0:00 | 90 mg | oral | 5-MAPB |
T+ 0:00 | 5 g | oral | Kratom |
T+ 4:00 | 40 mg | oral | 5-MAPB |
BODY WEIGHT: | 170 lb |
The only thing I ate the day of the experience was a single boiled egg, so my stomach was relatively empty.
I weighed out a dose of 90mgs on my scale and took it orally, it had a very sour taste and it made my tongue tingle a bit for a few minutes after ingestion. I redosed once with 40mgs about 4 hours into the experience, this provided only a modest boost to the experience. I also took 6 grams of kratom before the experience and 5 grams during the peak. I was a bit agitated and depressed before the experience because of my lack of good sleep and my general poor outlook on life sometimes. I used the substance in my apartment with my family.
It took about 30 minutes to start feeling the effects initially.
On the comeup I did have a moment of dysphoria that occurred right before the first wave hit me, but this was incredibly short lived and not at all unmanageable. The effects were amazing, this is my first experience with any empathogen and my god, it was intense.
My pupils were massive, taking up almost my entire eye. My creative flow could not be stopped, empathetic feelings intermixed with philosophy created a sense of emotional understanding I could not have felt without it. I was glad to be alive, glad for being born, glad for everything. I felt confident yet relaxed all at the same time, like I was completely and utterly in control and any situation I could handle with butter smooth efficiency.
It was a feeling of openness like no other, I could suddenly talk to my family about the things I felt reserved or shy about before, and I was hugging and kissing them and all the while I realized how much I appreciate them. I was incredibly chatty and energetic. Things that annoy me normally I could just brush off and ignore, and things that I loved became things that I really, really loved.
Despite what others report on similar substances I still could reserve myself around strangers, I wasn't going to tell them about what amazing gay porn I looked at but I could have had a casual chat with them all the same, social anxiety was obliterated. Oh yeah, speaking of gay porn, I loved it despite not being able to orgasm and finding it hard to get it up. Just looking at naked bodies kissing, having sex etc. was amazing on this stuff.
And this all happened to me on only a few hours of sleep, this stuff is truly powerful. There were minimal side effects but a very pronounced one is bruxism, I actually bit my tongue doing this and it was pretty constant throughout the experience. And as for the after effects, since I had a very small amount of sleep the night before the experience I crashed hard but more like the crash you get when you come off of any stimulant, not one similar to MDMA where you are depressed.
I wouldn't say this has a hangover whatsoever, I actually felt better than usual the next day and there are still some lasting effects on my positive emotions. All in all and incredibly life-changing and worthwhile experience.
Exp Year: 2015 | ExpID: 107553 |
Gender: Not Specified | |
Age at time of experience: 17 | |
Published: Dec 24, 2015 | Views: 4,389 |
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