DOSE:

oral

MDMA

BODY WEIGHT:

130 lb

I am 31. I started using ecstacy and mdma. I was a heavy user in my early 20s, dosing anywhere from 1 to 5 tablets every 1 or 2 weeks.

While I enjoyed the after effects most of the time, they eventually started to become more negative after a while, and I definitely did begin to notice a 'loss of magic' while taking ecstacy. I eventually stopped altogether. I went about 4 years without taking any ecstacy at all. Then in 2008 I went to an EDM festival and took several pills. After all this time, I felt the magic come back and the after-effects were once again pleasant. Two years later I repeated the experience, once again the effects were the same.

Now it has been another three years, at another festival this year (2013), I used mdma powder four nights in a row, and on the fourth night my experience was more euphoric than the previous three, and now 2 days later I'm feeling great, though quite tired, and I feel like I did after the first few times I dosed.

I estimate that over my lifetime that I have taken over 300 doses of ecstacy and MDMA. But if I take a good, long break, that there is no loss of its magic for me and the after-effects are still quite positive.

I am still on the fence about MDMA's link to depression. While I do suffer from some depression from time to time, I can't know if it's due to heavy MDMA use. I feel like I've actually been depressed since childhood, and while it's likely MDMA didn't help anything, I can't say with any certainty that it has caused or exacerbated my depression in any way. And even so, it's quite manageable.

[Reported Dose: "Approx. 1.5 - 2 g over a weekend"]

Exp Year: 2013	ExpID: 100973
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 31
Published: Oct 10, 2018	Views: 996
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